cookbooks and writing letters.

Today is pretty. Lots of sunshine. A good day to walk the .3 miles to the beach and check out the snow/ice there. I haven't gone yet, but I'll probably go at some point today and take some pictures.

If I could encourage you to do one thing today, it would be to go buy a cookbook and make something out of it. Be really picky about the cookbook you buy. Make sure you like most of the things in the cookbook, otherwise you won't ever look at it and it will just sit there. For my birthday, I got a "Classic Vegetarian Cookbook from the Middle East and North Africa." I love it. Literally everything in this cookbook looks amazing. The main ingredients are some of my favorite things: artichokes, avocados, chickpeas, asparagus, pomegranates, eggplant, and lentils.

Tonight, we're making an Arabian Pizza from Lebanon and Artichoke Tajin from Morocco. I'm super excited. I think it's easy to get stuck in a routine with food (especially if you pack your lunch for work). Buying a cookbook will help you to make foods that are unique. I would recommend buying a cookbook that specializes in food from another part of the world. You can easily find a lot of recipes for "American" food online (such as www.food.com, which used to be Recipe Zaar, which I LOVED).

So there is your challenge for today. Buy a cookbook OR look up an interesting recipe and make something different for dinner tonight.

Question: If you could write a letter to anyone, who would it be?

I thought about this question for a while, and I can't come up with a good answer. I think the letter I would write would be a general letter to anyone who would find said letter. How great would it be to be to have a random letter of encouragement show up in your mailbox from some anonymous person?

I used to love writing letters and sending them to people. I think this habit developed because I was generally out of this city/state/country for almost every summer. I would work at camp, or move to Spain, or go on trips... so I got in the habit of writing. I think I'm too lazy now, which is sad. Lazy or busy. Neither are very good excuses, but it's just not on my priority list right now. Maybe I will make it a goal to write at least one letter a month and send it.

smoothies. books. weird moods.

sometimes i get in moods where i am antsy and unsettled and can't focus my attention on one thing at a time. this is one of those times. i get nostalgic and think a lot and it's annoying.

i just found a really sweet crafting blog that has really awesome tutorials. there are quite a few that i want to try, and hopefully will maybe this coming weekend.

bachelor is on. i'm drinking a berry smoothie.

i don't want to pack a lunch tomorrow. bleh.

Question: -What is the best book you’ve read lately? Why is it good? Who would you recommend it to? 

I haven't read all of this book, but I started reading The Shallows by Nicholas Carr. It's mostly about how the internet is completely changing the way we think and function. I see that a lot with middle school and high school ages these days. They're used to really face-paced thinking (clicking back and forth between websites) and having everything at their fingertips. Sometimes it's hard to motivate them to really think about a question and dig deeper in analysis.  

It's good because it's really interesting to think about how our bodies can almost physically change due to the environments in which they are brought up. 

Another completely different book that I've liked recently is Crank by Ellen Hopkins. It's about a girl who is addicted to crystal meth and her struggles that go along with it. I like it because it's not written in traditional "book" style, and it really is a page-turner. I read it in a day. 

I want more time to read! And more money to buy books. I like to write in them. I guess I could go with a library card, too... and no writing.

superbowl and secret hobbies.

i have been so productive in the past few days.

// our house is spotless.
// my entire closet and dressers are color-coded.
// i set aside two huge bags worth of clothes i need to donate or get rid of because i never wear them.
// my "art" room is organized.
// i have made a ton of earrings and headbands.
// i am way ahead on copies and plans for school.
// i have skyped/talked with most of my out-of-town friends.
// i have planned a bit for our Cali trip. i have lots of groceries in the house.
// the last thing i really need to do is update my website.

Question: What is one hobby you have that most people don't know about?


i really don't have a lot of hobbies that people don't know about, i don't think. i like a lot of things. i like to talk about my hobbies. i'm pretty open about them. i like art. writing. travel. photography. painting. sewing. cooking. making jewelry and accessories. yoga. changing my hair... i guess that's a hobby. (:


most people probably don't know that i really like horseback riding. i rode for a good portion of my life. English, not Western, even though i like both. Western is way more laid back. English is kind of snobby and really precise and proper. i used to go to 'riding' camp when i was younger during summers. i did horse shows. i collected Grand Champions. i drew horses constantly. i still have my brushes and curry combs and sweat scrapers and crops and everything at my house. i wanted to own a horse for as long as i can remember.

i like the precision of English riding. i remember for shows, i would have to wear really specific clothing: breeches or jodhpurs, a dark colored top, hair in a braid, etc. i also learned how to plait the manes for shows like this:

 

 

i also secretly like to draw. that's probably not a surprise... especially if you've taken a class with me. my notes are covered in really crazy, abstract doodles. it actually helps me listen. not only do i like drawing, but i love designing tattoos, even though i probably would never, ever think about getting one. so that's something that definitely no one knows. i like to design tattoos. i also like to sketch ideas for clothes i want to make, but that's probably to be expected. (:

craft day. favorite words. being productive.

// Like I said, my friend and I are continuing post- Reverb with random prompts/questions each day. Today: what is your favorite word?

to say: facetious.
to write: jolly? i think. only in cursive though, because i like writing cursive j's and y's and that's the first word i thought of that had both.
in Spanish: bacalao (cod)
symbolic: growth.
when teaching: precursor. i think because i just taught them what that meant.
to sound smart: assimilate. inexorable. not that those are really hard words, but i like using them recently.
to sound like my students: pysch. haha. or 'sike.' they spell it both ways.


So today, I made things. Tortilla soup, lots of copies at work, and accessories. I was going to do a how-to post with the belt, but I already have way too many pictures for this post. (:

I am.

I had my students write "I Am" poems during the first couple weeks of Creative Writing and share them with the class. I was blown away with the emotion and honesty they shared in these poems. Sometimes, when I have time, I love to do the assignments with them, but I didn't get the chance to do the "I Am" this past semester. At least, until now. Here's what mine would be:

I am tired. Of the brokenness, the hurt, and the bitterness.
I am tired of being exhausted and weary.
I am tired of being pulled in too many directions.
I am tired of renting. Of the ugly fern lampshades and beach themes.
I am tired of packing a lunch every night.
I am tired of my selfishness.
I am tired of note-taking and Love and Logic.
I am tired of relationships.
I am tired of being too trusting. I am tired of not being trusting at all.
I am tired of appointments and living by my iPhone.
I am tired of saying I want to do something and not following through.
I am tired of snow and scraping my car off.
I am tired of to-do lists.
I am tired of snapping at the people I care about.
I am tired of shallow friendships and not having the time to invest.
I am tired of anger that builds up and boils over and never settles.
I am tired of needing affirmation in words and actions.
I am tired of wearing boots and scarves.
I am tired of living far away from my friends.
I am tired of early mornings and routines and schedules.
I am tired of pouring myself into my job.
I am tired of organic food being so expensive.
I am tired of not having time. For dance. For yoga. For painting.
I am tired of protecting myself, building up walls, and holding back.
I am tired of being stuck here. In this house. In this state. When my soul is longing to wander.
I am tired of putting on a brave face.
I am tired of being a product of broken trust, fears, and insecurities.



However...
I am covered by God's grace.

I am grateful. To be alive, to be warm, to be loved.
I am grateful for encouraging family and friends who support me.
I am grateful for honesty.
I am grateful for a God who loves and restores me.
I am grateful for motivated students and growth.
I am grateful that I am needed.
I am grateful for Bon Iver and Mumford and Sons.
I am grateful for hazelnut coffee.
I am grateful that I am adored.
I am grateful for nature and creation.
I am grateful for self - expression and the people who understand.
I am grateful for writing. And paint. And cameras.
I am grateful for cookbooks and dinners with friends.
I am grateful for and much-needed "me" time.
I am grateful for guys who still know how to pursue.
I am grateful for transitions, topic sentences, and hooks.
I am grateful for knowledge and continually learning.
I am grateful to know Spanish.
I am grateful for Founders and Bottom 40 and the friends who go along with that.
I am grateful for stargazing, picnics, and sailing.
I am grateful for trusting that God knows what He's doing.
I am grateful for the friends who challenge, encourage, and accept me.
I am grateful that I can pay it forward.
I am grateful that I'm in a position to teach my students to do the same.
I am grateful for late night texts that encourage me.
I am grateful for laughing until I cry. For learning to laugh at myself.
I am grateful for having a trip to plan.
I am grateful that I am loved. Deeply. Fully. Unconditionally.
I am grateful for relationships that haven't worked out and what I've learned from them.
I am grateful that I am known.
I am grateful for crazy outfits and feathers in my hair.
I am grateful that I am a work in progress.
I am grateful I can pour myself into my job.
I am grateful to have a God who covers me with love.
I am grateful to be a product of hope, renewal, and unfailing love.


PS:
I just got a new skirt from JB and Me... and I'm already excited about my outfit for tomorrow.
Mira. (It's really awesome quality because it's from my Mac, but I wanted to show you)
If you work with me, I'm wearing this tomorrow... but don't worry, I just tried it on. I didn't wear it all day. (;

Skirt: JB and Me. Top: Dress from Forever 21. Cardigan: Gap. Necklace: Made myself. (: I haven't worn it yet because it hasn't really matched anything yet.

Day Thirty-One: core story. snow day goals. last reverb. making earrings.

If you have the day off, what are you going to do with your day? Any goals? Just relax? (:

I know it's really bad outside, but I want to go snowshoeing right now.

I might be going to see Rocket to the Moon in L.A. I'm SUPER pumped.

This is the last Reverb questions, meaning I completed the month-long challenge to write (almost) every day. I feel accomplished. As I've mentioned before, my friend and I have a list of questions we created so we can continue writing. It probably won't be daily, but it's good for me to have writing back in my life. Even if it's just blogging. Even if no one reads it. It's good for me, and that's all I really care about. (:

Today, I made a whole bunch of earrings.

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Writing Challenge Day 31
I'm doing a 31 day writing challenge, found on the Reverb website, designed to reflect on the past year and look forward to what's to come in 2011.

Core Story. What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world? 

I think my "core story" is pretty complicated, but I feel like most people feel that way. My core story is a combination of my life experiences, goals, dreams, and setbacks. My friends and family are a big part of my core story. The jobs I have, the relationships I've been in, the times I've gotten hurt... all part of my core story.

If I had to narrow it down, I think my core story has more to do with the following:
-travel / adventure
-surrounding myself with the right people
-artistic expression
-faith
-spontaneity and living life to the fullest
-idealism and crazy ideas
-encouragement

I share my core story in a lot of ways. I'm pretty open about some parts of my story, and pretty closed off about others. The biggest way I share my story is just through one-on-one conversations. Although I LOVE hanging out in groups and being social, nothing can replace a really great conversation with one other person. This is why I love coffee dates or lunch dates SO MUCH.

I love hearing about other peoples' "core stories,"  even more than I like talking about my own. I'm a big question asker. Sometimes it's annoying. Sometimes it's too forward. Sometimes it leads to wonderful conversations. I'm better at reading people that I used to be. I'm better at determining whether or not someone is willing to open up. I guess it's because I've had a lot of practice with working at Springhill and as a Younglife leader. Hearing "core stories" was pretty much my job.

If you want to know my "core story," just ask. It might take a few conversations or a lot of hang outs to understand, but I would love to share. At least part of it. And I would love even more to hear yours. (: I feel like every year, I am learning more and more what makes me the way that I am. I feel like my life is a big puzzle, and sometimes, I'll have this epiphany... and make connections to the past and present that explain a lot about my life.

This post was really vague. You'll just have to talk to me if you want me to explain it more. (:

Day Twenty-Nine and Thirty: Blizzards. Pay It Foward. Defining moments. Gifts.

So there's this blizzard coming tomorrow. The newscaster just said the phrase "thundersnow." I didn't know that existed. It must not, because it's underlined in red. Haha. Maybe I won't have school. If I don't have school, I'm definitely cleaning my "art" room. And making guacamole. And painting. And planning lots of lessons. And buying a new book on my Nook.

Yesterday, on the first day of the semester, I introduced a semester-long "project" with my students. They have to find at least one nice thing to do for someone... a random act of kindness. I showed some videos, had them brainstorm their own ideas, and even gave them all a bracelet that says "Commit to Kindness" on it (similar to Livestrong ones). I ordered cards from this website, which students will pass along to the person that they do the nice thing for. That person is supposed to do something kind and continue to pass the card along. Each card will have a tracking number; students can track where their card goes throughout the semester.

I told them I would do it with them. I need to start thinking of some good ideas. Today, one of my students found this really awesome note in her SSR book she checked out that was signed "Pay It Forward." It talked about how we should be more accepting and encouraging to others at school...
how he/she hoped the person reading the note felt loved and inspired, etc. She let me read it. It was precious. We are going to make a bulletin board for our Pay It Forward stuff so we can hang up things like that. (:

We're making our favorite goat cheese dinner. We really need to branch out haha... but it's so delicious. And I forgot my lunch AND my nalgene of water today, so I'm hungry. I tried to microwave a package of ramen in my coffee mug for lunch. It didn't work out so well.


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Writing Challenge Day 29 + 30
I'm doing a 31 day writing challenge, found on the Reverb website, designed to reflect on the past year and look forward to what's to come in 2011.


[Day 29] Defining Moment. Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year. 

My summer. Anywhere after graduating college until starting teaching. Transitions like that are so huge that they are inevitably defining. I feel the same way about the summer between high school and college. There is so much time to contemplate and reflect. It's like you're stuck between two completely different worlds, and you're not ready to let go or leap forward yet. At a certain point, you just have to be prepared to move forward.

In times like these, I distract myself with being busy. Usually that means a job (working at Springhill, usually) or a vacation. This past summer, it was hiking. I overthink. And analyze. And sometimes overplan. Hiking allows me freedom from that.

I think I learn a lot about myself through these "defining moments." It's not necessarily what happens to me, but my response to it. How I handle things. What my next move is. How I use what I have learned in the past to push forward.




[Day 30] Gift. What’s the most memorable gift, tangible or emotional, you received this year? 

Emotional = Affirmation. That I am smart, and that shouldn't scare me. That what I do can sometimes inspire someone. That I am unique. That I can follow my dreams and I have the support of my friends and family, even if I don't have all of their understanding.

Tangible = Cookbooks. Sprouts I can grow myself. Nook. Probably lots of other things.